Somehow I've found motivation?!

I'm so exhausted right now, I'm at the point of delirium.

I am so fucking proud of myself for this week.

I haven't eaten meat in a week! I've stuck with it!

I feel awesome!

I have so much energy (with the exception of right now), I am finally feeling like I don't need amphetamines in order to be productive, I've been keeping the house clean, and...

Working out every day and staying within my calorie range.

Goin' Green

Well...

It's been a while.

Hello, again, Bloggerland!

I tried the lithium for two weeks and then, successfully, lobbied my psychiatrist to put me on Wellbutrin instead.

I haven't seen a huge change yet, but I've only been on it for a week.

I've also taken a rather huge step in stopping my Vyvanse. While I do have ADHD, I think I've been using amphetamines for a long time as a crutch - especially for controlling my eating.

The first few days were utter hell.

Wonderland

I had a chat with my psychiatrist on Friday.

It went how it usually does.

Asking me basic questions.

Being surprised that I have a job. (This part never gets old.)

Ending with adding a new medication to my cocktail of psychiatrics.

This time, drum roll please, I get lithium.

As if it's not hilarious enough that pictures of Kurt Cobain flood Google image searches on lithium,
the name of this picture, originally used on a university webpage about the usage of lithium
as a pharmaceutical, simply names this picture 'Lithium Guy', seemingly unaware
that this 'Lithium Guy' is, in fact, the most famous user of lithium. Ever.

I've crept back...

I'm beginning to hate my job, mostly because it's making me hate myself.

I'm not good enough.

I'm not smart enough.

More than that - I'm brilliant. I'm skilled. I'm talented.

But I'm lazy.

I'm overworked.

I start missing common errors and clients notice and react like

No More Breakfast of Champions

Whew!

It's been a while.

More than a while.

But I got the job!

So I'm working full time now, in addition to the housekeeping and babysitting gigs.

And school.

Updating Infrequently = Super Long Ramblings

Wellllll.....

I'm heading out to ye olde post office in a bit to start sending out the giveaway prizes!

For those of you winners that haven't yet emailed me your mailing address... you can still do so at this address.

And hurry! Because my self-control is waning and I've got tons of makeup goodies just sitting around waiting for me to break down and open them!

Before I review the makeup for you guys, let me again reiterate (redundant, no?) for those of you that don't know, I'm a member of BzzAgent, a word-of-mouth marketing firm that lets it's users participate in campaigns to try out new products and give honest feedback. I was selected to be a member of the Maybelline Baby Lips and Lots of Lashes campaign so I received these products for free.

Giveaway Results!

The results are in!

I used this random number generator to get the winners of last week's giveaway.

Some of your numbers actually came up multiple times since there were only 12 entries - so you guys just had the lucky numbers. ;)

In the order in which they were selected:

Little Miss Thin - Mascara

TK - Mascara

Jéanne - Lip Balm

Peridot - Lip Balm

Lissa - Lip Balm and Mascara

Just email me at this address with your name and address - being sure to include all address info if you live outside of the United States.

That's it!

Lip balm ladies, include in your emails your preferences for the lip balms - I have 2 clear, 1 pink, and 1 peach-colored lip balms.

Just remember!

Once you get the products, be sure to try them out and let me know how you like them! :D

A bientôt, lovelies.

- parisienne.love