Somehow I've found motivation?!

I'm so exhausted right now, I'm at the point of delirium.

I am so fucking proud of myself for this week.

I haven't eaten meat in a week! I've stuck with it!

I feel awesome!

I have so much energy (with the exception of right now), I am finally feeling like I don't need amphetamines in order to be productive, I've been keeping the house clean, and...

Working out every day and staying within my calorie range.

Goin' Green

Well...

It's been a while.

Hello, again, Bloggerland!

I tried the lithium for two weeks and then, successfully, lobbied my psychiatrist to put me on Wellbutrin instead.

I haven't seen a huge change yet, but I've only been on it for a week.

I've also taken a rather huge step in stopping my Vyvanse. While I do have ADHD, I think I've been using amphetamines for a long time as a crutch - especially for controlling my eating.

The first few days were utter hell.

Wonderland

I had a chat with my psychiatrist on Friday.

It went how it usually does.

Asking me basic questions.

Being surprised that I have a job. (This part never gets old.)

Ending with adding a new medication to my cocktail of psychiatrics.

This time, drum roll please, I get lithium.

As if it's not hilarious enough that pictures of Kurt Cobain flood Google image searches on lithium,
the name of this picture, originally used on a university webpage about the usage of lithium
as a pharmaceutical, simply names this picture 'Lithium Guy', seemingly unaware
that this 'Lithium Guy' is, in fact, the most famous user of lithium. Ever.

I've crept back...

I'm beginning to hate my job, mostly because it's making me hate myself.

I'm not good enough.

I'm not smart enough.

More than that - I'm brilliant. I'm skilled. I'm talented.

But I'm lazy.

I'm overworked.

I start missing common errors and clients notice and react like

No More Breakfast of Champions

Whew!

It's been a while.

More than a while.

But I got the job!

So I'm working full time now, in addition to the housekeeping and babysitting gigs.

And school.

Updating Infrequently = Super Long Ramblings

Wellllll.....

I'm heading out to ye olde post office in a bit to start sending out the giveaway prizes!

For those of you winners that haven't yet emailed me your mailing address... you can still do so at this address.

And hurry! Because my self-control is waning and I've got tons of makeup goodies just sitting around waiting for me to break down and open them!

Before I review the makeup for you guys, let me again reiterate (redundant, no?) for those of you that don't know, I'm a member of BzzAgent, a word-of-mouth marketing firm that lets it's users participate in campaigns to try out new products and give honest feedback. I was selected to be a member of the Maybelline Baby Lips and Lots of Lashes campaign so I received these products for free.

Giveaway Results!

The results are in!

I used this random number generator to get the winners of last week's giveaway.

Some of your numbers actually came up multiple times since there were only 12 entries - so you guys just had the lucky numbers. ;)

In the order in which they were selected:

Little Miss Thin - Mascara

TK - Mascara

Jéanne - Lip Balm

Peridot - Lip Balm

Lissa - Lip Balm and Mascara

Just email me at this address with your name and address - being sure to include all address info if you live outside of the United States.

That's it!

Lip balm ladies, include in your emails your preferences for the lip balms - I have 2 clear, 1 pink, and 1 peach-colored lip balms.

Just remember!

Once you get the products, be sure to try them out and let me know how you like them! :D

A bientôt, lovelies.

- parisienne.love

Working Woman

Well, I had planned on updating earlier, but I suppose today works out fine because....

Today is the last day to enter the giveaway!

Today is also Thursday.

Thursdays are nice in my book because I don't have my internship, I just have housekeeping.

Makeup Giveaway!!!

Ahhhhh!

The package arrived!

As I mentioned in my last post, I'm a member of BzzAgent, a word-of-mouth marketing firm that offers campaigns where members can try out new products and, in return, let BzzAgent know what they thought of the products and what their friends/family thought.

I was selected to participate in the Maybelline Baby Lips lip balm and Lots of Lashes mascara campaign and am passing on my good fortune to you!

The package arrived and I received not one, not two, but five Baby Lips lip balms and five Lots of Lashes mascaras.

Being diligent about trying out the products.... I'm keeping one set of mascara and lip balm for myself, saving another set to let one of my coworkers try out, and giving the rest away to you!

Cheesin'

MIA No Longer and Upcoming Giveaway!

I know I say this all the time...

"I'm busy."

"I'll catch up on your blogs."

"I'll update more, I promise!"

Yeah, well, that hasn't exactly happened lately.

*hangs head in shame*

Tattoo time!

Oh, dear god.

I've been missing in action for absolute aaaagggggeeeeesssssss.

I apologize. Sincerely.

I've been swamped with work, school, internship, two kitties, and life in general.

And I'm still trapped at 120 lbs.

The scale will. not. move.

Mer-meow!

I've been a workin' woman.

Gone 3 days a week, all day.

First the internship, then the housekeeping.

Poor master Jaks has been a sad, sad kitty.

Staring up at me each day when I come home, crying.

;____;

Poor crying kitty.

Don't be sad!

Sleek Teeth

The braces have finally come off.

I was warned that my teeth would not be perfect.

I went to a new orthodontist in Florida and, apparently, the brackets I had were different from the brackets he worked with.

I had already paid an $85 deposit, so I decided fuck it, just take them off.

The dreaded rising scale

Well, enough work talk.

I've been so incredibly stressed out lately with getting the internship, getting everything figured out with school, getting my financial aid finalized, classes, life in general - everything!

I've been a mad woman lately.

Stress is a very bad thing for me.

I am the worst at handling stress and lately I've been eating like a starved animal as a defense mechanism.

Hand over the Ramen and no one gets hurt!

Busy Bee

Well I started the internship on Monday.

Everything, thankfully, got worked out.

My first day primarily consisted of stuffing, labeling, and sealing envelopes.

It was much less glamorous than this.

The Plight of the Overexcited

I get my hopes up.

Often.

The littlest things get me insanely excited.

I start planning for things far in advance.

Researching every little detail, buying necessary items, telling everyone and their mother about whatever opportunity I've found for myself.

And then it all comes crashing down.

Every single damn time.

Thank you, lovelies

You ladies are the best good luck charm anyone could ever ask for.

Ever.

Guess who had an interview today?

And did awesome?

AND GOT THE INTERNSHIP?!

Crazy Anxiety Time

I have an interview.

Tomorrow.

Commence freak out.

Mad Men, you cruel temptress of television laziness

So I've been rather MIA lately. And this is why.

As many of you know, and as evidenced by my insane Banana Republic shopping sprees, I have an intense love for Mad Men (and all things marketing/advertising-related in general).

Cheating on my iPad 2....?

It's a thing of beauty.

Shiny, sleek, new.

Jaks likes it, too. Cat thinks he's people...