Somehow I've found motivation?!

I'm so exhausted right now, I'm at the point of delirium.

I am so fucking proud of myself for this week.

I haven't eaten meat in a week! I've stuck with it!

I feel awesome!

I have so much energy (with the exception of right now), I am finally feeling like I don't need amphetamines in order to be productive, I've been keeping the house clean, and...

Working out every day and staying within my calorie range.

Goin' Green

Well...

It's been a while.

Hello, again, Bloggerland!

I tried the lithium for two weeks and then, successfully, lobbied my psychiatrist to put me on Wellbutrin instead.

I haven't seen a huge change yet, but I've only been on it for a week.

I've also taken a rather huge step in stopping my Vyvanse. While I do have ADHD, I think I've been using amphetamines for a long time as a crutch - especially for controlling my eating.

The first few days were utter hell.

Wonderland

I had a chat with my psychiatrist on Friday.

It went how it usually does.

Asking me basic questions.

Being surprised that I have a job. (This part never gets old.)

Ending with adding a new medication to my cocktail of psychiatrics.

This time, drum roll please, I get lithium.

As if it's not hilarious enough that pictures of Kurt Cobain flood Google image searches on lithium,
the name of this picture, originally used on a university webpage about the usage of lithium
as a pharmaceutical, simply names this picture 'Lithium Guy', seemingly unaware
that this 'Lithium Guy' is, in fact, the most famous user of lithium. Ever.

I've crept back...

I'm beginning to hate my job, mostly because it's making me hate myself.

I'm not good enough.

I'm not smart enough.

More than that - I'm brilliant. I'm skilled. I'm talented.

But I'm lazy.

I'm overworked.

I start missing common errors and clients notice and react like